The beginning of the end

Its hard to say when everything turned bad, i know it started to end when i meet my last partner. Everything was great when i meet her love was in the air but the signs were there in the beginning that this would not last but i was to blind to see them then. There was no doubt in my mind she didnt love me or was it she loved the idea of loving me, who knows . I certainly dont but the signs i talk of really mean something now. You see i spent nearly 3 yrs alone after my last relationship as that ended in heartbreak so i decided to stay alone to repair the damage and work out where i went wrong to ensure i didnt do it again. Now people hear this all the time what works for one person doesnt always work for the other and that is true. I feel like a fool my friends warned me it would end in heartache but i believed inside it wouldnt but i guess i still had doubt. My ex partner was married when i first reconnected with her after many years of nothing and when i reconnected with her i never had any intentions of going there but after listening to her telling me her marriage was over while i was living on the other side of the country. Now that should of been enough for me to say no but i felt so bad for her and everything she told me bout how much her husband abused her and treated her like crap that the person i was inside all i wanted to do was help and so i did, i finished up with my affairs in QLD fighting for my son and headed back to WA resume my life i had left behind, but this time i had something different to return home to, i had a woman who was searching for the very thing i offered and wanted me. Now i was stoked i started to fall for this woman and believed that she wanted me for me and the decent life i could offer, but what i didnt realize that she went straight from her husband to me and that is a warning sign in itself and slowly i realized i could offer her something but it wasnt what i thought it would be. Money played a big part in what she wanted it offered a security for her and her kids that she never had before. But i was to screwed up and in love to realize this. History taught me with jodi that running from relationship to relationship although may be fun will always be destined to end and my new relationship was no different. You see even i though i had a chance to heal and grow from my last relationship she didnt and my own advice that i pass on to everyone else i didnt follow myself and its funny to see that without wasting any time after me she is on the lookout for the next victim. I do wish her and my daughter all the happiness in the world but Karma and history have a way of coming back no matter how much you try and deny it and in the end the kids will suffer just like last time and the time before and as a father that is something i struggle to deal with. In time things will subside and so forth but my mind will always linger any of you out there who can do it for me please keep an eye on my little princess and keep her safe i know its my job but i have failed and can not do it at this point in time i do not need to know whats going on unless her life is in danger but she needs to be protected