a day in the valley

today i reached the valley on the road to a new beggining, a new life i didnt really want but a life i have no other choice to accept. you see  i had this woman i loved with all my heart but then i started acting in ways she couldnt handle and when she couldnt handle it then i couldnt handle it so i lost it and i lost it in such a way it destroyed the very fabric of everything i hold dear, but everything always happens for a reason and that what destiny is so i am off to find out who i am. and why i am and why i do things i never intended to hurt the ones i love but i knew it was the only way i could do what i needed to do to heal. i died inside and everything around my died with me. Im walking a loney road on a journey far far away, my heart is broken but i will live and i will in such a way for when i return i will be the man i once was as i have become someone i hate and everytime i look in the mirror i despise what i see. I am strong always have been but not at the moment im going to rebuild what has been lost and i will rebuild bigger and better im just thankful i now have the chance to heal i was never allowed to heal not my way anyway im just sorry she had to witness it 1st hand its 1:52 south australian time and im signing out