very taboo

domestic violence is a very touchy subject these days, you have many people sitting on various sides of the fence. Me personally i have been against violence with women for a very long time but after being with my last partner my veiw that i have had for the most part of my life changed quite considerably now dont get me wrong as im not trying to start a debate but the topic is not as black and white as some people might think. Yes violence against women is wrong but sometimes some things become so bad in a relationship that the lines between right and wrong are blurred.Hell my ex partners father used to beat the fuck out of her mother on such a regular occasion that he actually knocked her out, but as my ex discovered later on it wasnt always as simple as her father beating her mother, she learnt that some of the things her mother did not help and even made the situation so bad that the only way her father could stop the mental anguish his wife caused him that beating her up was the only solution. Now me to have been accused of being a woman beater and yet i have never hit a woman before in my life, no dont get me wrong i have been tempted ive been pushed over the limit so badly that i have really wanted to just knock her out but i never did. I have grabbed her though and i have grabbed her hard not to hurt her or to abuse her but to get it through her head back off or im going to snap. Now as people who know me they know i havnt been very well lately ive been very depressed and not coping well with life even so much so that i thought suicide was the only way out. Now that is fucked how weak is it to think like that but yes i did i was fucked up and dead inside but with everything inside of me i have realized the path i was taking was killing me and killing the woman i loved. Now im still against violence angainst women but before i judge in the future i will make sure i learn the truth before i judge because i have lived the life of the accused before when i know that i never did or ever will and that is the real truth its not the 70"s anymore the world is a much different place the good guys look like the bad guys and the bad guys can look like any one at all